Mission to Heal

For the last few months I have been on a journey of awareness and seeking my higher self, higher thoughts, higher vibrations. I believe there is more to life than the simple working to survive and take occasional vacations and stay-cations. I have always been pretty intuitive, but now I am learning to not second guess what I feel in my gut. I vibe off energy.

Since starting on this new journey I have drifted away from some of the people I once held dear to me. Bits of their characters I had once either subconsciously ignored or been oblivious to began to surface, and I realized I had been in the company of people that either really didn’t like me, were jealous, were in secret competition, or all three. I have never been one to ever think anyone was jealous of or threatened by me because I can’t fathom why anyone would feel that way. I’m no angel, but I am also no devil. I reside on the side of just trying to stay in my lane and let other people live their lives however they choose and living my own with sprinkles of love, lust, spirituality, peace, light, and a little bit of mischief to break up the monotony and sate my free spirit. 

Although people began leaving, other people began to filter in. The new people all possessed beautiful souls and spirits. It was as if we all knew each other from different times and spaces, long lost friends from past lives. One of the hardest lessons I have had to learn in this season of my life is how to let go and become a revolving spiritual door. I had a bad habit of harboring hurt feelings and feelings of abandonment and rejection all while trying to rationalize and analyze why some people leave me, hurt me, don’t like me, or just don’t want me. I am learning that some people truly only have a season in your life and are not meant to be held on to. Learn the lesson and bid them adieu when their times have expired with no hard feelings. I also learned that there are others that should be cherished and the relationships nourished. 

Learning to let go and not over analyze has been a bit of a challenge for me because I have a highly analytical mind and am more emotionally sensitive than I let on, but it has been worth the challenge. I finally have clarity as to what my purpose in life is, and how to go about fulfilling that purpose. I feel lighter, more peaceful, and at ease. I can literally feel the stress melting away as I release the negative thoughts, fears, and regrets. My new-found mission in life is simply healing and aiding others in their own healings. It’s not a religious thing, but a spiritual, energy, and vibe thing. 

Peace, love, and light,

Q