It’s perfectly okay to have someone’s penis, fingers, and tongue in every orifice of your body but NOT okay to question them about their sex life outside of you. It’s easy to remain emotionally unavailable because when one can’t deal with it there is a harem waiting and vying for the attention and couldn’t care less about the ‘real’ you. ‘Friends’ has become synonymous with cut buddy. Having endless options leads to making no decision as long as a handful are always down for sexing. Labeling limits what ‘could’ be. Half truths and lies by omission are strewn about to avoid hurting feelings. Don’t ask, don’t tell, but the truth blares even when there are no words being spoken. I want it all, your all. Your good, bad, shallow, deep, beautiful, horrid, ambrosial, stench, tasty, gag inducing. I want you, your whole truth, your whole you, you solely, your soul with no other soul ties.
u should tell him
ReplyDeletesometime its good not to know everything coz I probably won't ask you for everything either, especially if y'all just met. over time am sure you'll learn more about each other.
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ReplyDeleteI continue to live and breath him - hidden in the shadows in which he's placed me with those like you - a 'friend,', a 'homegirl'.
He will not give you what you're looking for. He will dig his emotional hooks into you and very much like a fish out of water, he will observe you, marvel in that which makes you unique, obtaining what HE needs from you, oblivious to, or uncaring of the suffering that he's inflicting upon you by not realeasing you. He doesn't want to 'ruin' what you have by defining it, as he doesn't want to deal with the pitfalls of a traditional relationship - what you have is 'so much more than sex,' he wants something more than a traditional relationship, etc., etc. etc. He will tell you these things to make you his, but he will never, ever give you HIM.
soo true sister...xx
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