Baby Fever

Today is my little man’s 4th birthday. He’s all super excited because I promised him that I would take him to Chuck E Cheese and buy him a Kung Fu Panda birthday cake. Tonight I plan to round up his little friends, cousins, and neighbors to come over and help him celebrate. Anyhoo, Kambren has been having baby fever. It all started during Hurricane Ike. Let me explain…

We had no power after Hurricane Ike made landfall here in Houston, so we stayed 2 nights at my sister’s place because she got her power restored within a few hours. Her brother in law and sister in law were also there. Lisa, her sister in law has a new baby by the name of Temitayo. Temitayo is a doll. My mother was holding her. Kambren went near the baby, and his eyes just lit up like a person in love for the very first time. My mother asked him if he wanted a baby, and he looked at me and said yes. My heart skipped a couple of beats. I have my hands full with my two sons already! I told him that the baby would need a daddy and that mommy would have to be married to the daddy. He didn’t understand that.

A few weeks later we were riding in the car and he asked me “Mommy, can we have a little baby?” I didn’t answer him. Then he asked me “Mommy, do you have to eat the little baby to get it in your tummy?” OMG! That was too cute I couldn’t help but laugh. He pinched his forefinger and thumb together and pretended to eat a tiny imaginary baby so that I would fully understand him.

While I was married to the boys’ father I didn’t think I would ever have anymore children because he got a vasectomy while I was pregnant with Kambren. I thought we had the perfect little family. Mommy, Daddy, and our two sons. After we separated I really didn’t want anymore. Then after our divorce I started thinking about getting remarried and so desperately wanted a little girl. Now I’m not so sure anymore. I don’t really want anymore children, but if I happen to marry a man that wants more, I will agree to ONE more…maybe. My children are getting older and it feels good to not have to wake at 2 A.M. for feedings, no changing diapers, no more potty training or packing diaper bags for EVERY little trip I make, no more messy burping babies or still wearing maternity clothes after the baby is born because the old ones no longer fit, no more engorged brick hard breasts that leak the moment I step into the shower, or bleeding for a month straight. Kailon is 8. Kambren is 4. By the time I meet a man and develop a steady relationship, they are bound to be 10 and 6 before I even consider having a baby, which would make me 29 pushing 30! Wouldn’t the age gap be too far apart between them and the new baby? No? Great…Now I’M the one with baby fever!